untitled

It has been a while since I have posted.  Mostly because I have been bummed and that isn’t a “cool” topic to share these days.  I have written so many posts and thought “Man, that is a bummer. Who would enjoy reading this?” and then deleted it…

It’s amazing to me how much life’s little curve balls can completely lead to a full on derailment. At the end of it all, everything is well…okay and mostly the same. I guess I am fine with that. Better okay than not right?

I guess that is the weird thing about feeling a wave of depression (something I really don’t have a lot of experience with). For me there wasn’t one certain thing that I could point to that was leading me to feel that way. Lots of things that collectively were making the blah feeling snowball into uncontrollable sad thoughts all the time.  I generally am a happy person, so this is challenging for me to handle.

It all started when my bff cat Amelia died on my sisters birthday in February.  Then early March we had a massively disruptive oil leak in our new house that is still being fixed. Come early April Bandit dies unexpectedly and I just became crushed.  For the next few months our house felt empty and literally broken.  The stress just made me shut down for a while and stop posting on the blog.

Fast forward to now.  4th of July week.  We celebrated the one year anniversary of being homeowners and adopted two kittens, Frankie and Berlioz.. the renovation from the oil mess is so close to be finished and summer is here in full swing.

Things are looking up, and you know what? So am I. It’s time to snap out of it and get back to living, happily.

I guess the reason I am actually finally posting this depressing post is because that is life and you shouldn’t be ashamed of it.  Being sad or depressed is natural at times and that is okay.


Side note for those who follow regularly: Rascal is doing just fine with the kittens

Rascal and Frankie

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2 thoughts on “untitled

  1. Amen, sister. Thanks for sharing your struggles. I was depressed on and off for much of my life (esp twenties) and it is a feeling like “who would want to hear any of this, I’ll just isolate myself” which doesn’t help much. You are right though that sometimes feeling down is just part of life and it is ok to just feel it without having to fix it.. social media makes this all worse with the endlessly “highlight moments” pics leaving out all the regular day to day blahs. I even feel guilty when I get down because I have so much to be grateful for but I still find a way for it to not be enough. The human condition. Hang in there and get extra kitty snuggles ! ❤️

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    1. Oh Juliana – THANKS! It is so true that feeling of having everything you could want and feeling like being down is unjustified. I think that was the hardest part for me. Thinking I should be so happy with everything I have, and have worked for, and the depressed feelings being unfounded and inappropriate. I’ve learned it is ok and that if I don’t feel well, it’s not something I should be ashamed for or something I don’t have a right to feel. It’s just life! Love you girl!

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